Back Again

Man, it's been awhile since I have posted here. I suppose I'm blogging again on a regular basis, but I'm making no promises, no formulas.

Let's see, what's happened.. last time I posted I was working for a mortgage company. Well, they went belly up (with so many others), but frankly, they had their heads firmly up their asses. Got a new job, relatively quickly, making more money. Better job, more responsibility, not quite as crazy. I'll post more details later.

Oh, and my wife and I are having a baby.

Not sure why I am writing an update like this, I doubt any of the people from before will stumble across it. I only started up again because someone I knew did. That, and to get some writing exercise. God help me, I'm trying to write a book or novella. Not trying to publish it, don't really want to, just want to see if I can do it. It's been something inching inside me for a while.

I know a few people who do the MySpace thing, but damn, I find it boring. Maybe I'm just anti-social, but I don't think that's (exactly) what it is. It just doesn't seem to center around writing, just posting goofy shit. It's the Internet's version of the bathroom wall. Maybe I'm missing something, but I like this kind of blogging better.

Oops, forgot...

I meant to post this link a week ago, but forgot: http://news.independent.co.uk/world/americas/article2758838.ece

It's another sad reminder of what Dubya will do suppress science and logic in favor of a misguided party line.


I haven't been posting much lately, a little overwhelmed. Just so much going on, I forget to blog. I need to write about what is going on at work, and why I need to move on. Also, I'll probably throw in what happened at my last job.

Where'd Everyone Go?

Looks like almost everyone I knew through blogging has disappeared. One of them has become a "real-life" friend, and a good one at that, so it isn't a total loss. But man, the old scene is no more! Guess I should expect it, given how long I've been gone, but some of them have been gone for quite some time.

Maybe as bad, is that my BlogRoll is quite stale, and I forgot my credentials in order to change it. I'll figure something out, no big deal, but I still find it kind of funny.

At this point, I have to admit to myself it won't ever be the same. Very few, if any, people will probably read this blog. I'm not sure if it is sad or liberating (in some way). To be honest, I was never one for reading other people's blogs, unless they had drama going on in their life or if they were exceptionally entertaining and informative.. and that person is the friend mentioned above. So, if you read this, and you have a blog like that, let me know.

This is some Blade Runner shit, right here!

You got to check this site out:

"Our software takes a large collection of photos of a place or an object, analyzes them for similarities, and then displays the photos in a reconstructed three-dimensional space, showing you how each one relates to the next."

My current job in IT is a bit bland and stall, but after looking at what these people did with their computer time, I'm more than jealous - I'm depressed. What do I have to show for my work at the end of the day? Nothing like this, I know that! I know there was a team of people behind this, but damn, they make me look like a total dumb ass in comparison!

But in one way, it did make me feel better, (besides being suitably impressed). The subject matter for the demo happens to be St. Mark's Square in Venice, Italy. I went there last year, and it made a lot of great memories come flooding back.

I'm back...

Been a long, long time, must mean I need to switch jobs again. Not sure why I came back, but I feel compelled to for some reason. Haven't been reading into politics as much, lately. So many bricks find their way lodged into my skull that you will have to forgive me for no longer making a hobby of bashing my head against the illogical and insane.

All this is owed to working in IT. You realize the futility in making the world a logical place. Or maybe it is owed to the movie Idiocracy, that I feel this way.

I suppose I can spout off about the plastic, or (at least) ambiguous, nature of truth. But lets be honest, when the world is struggling with logic, (at least lately), talking about truth is a bit presumptuous.

Yes, you may be a dreamer, and you may not be the only one, but it is going to be an awfully long nap time before the world you imagine comes to fruition. I think I'll concentrate on damage control, trying to prevent this country, and world, from turning into a bad rip off of 1984. Or maybe Idiocracy is a more likely scenario.

I know, I'm being cynical, but that isn't exactly new.

So what now? I'll probably not be posting about politics. While you can try to feed your neighbor, the world may be a bit too lofty. While the world (as a whole) probably has the capacity to easily care for its downtrodden, it assumes competency, (see above). While we have it in our means to cure the world of common diseases, ensure peace, invent new.. well, you get the idea, it's a long shot.

But I guess I do have one "cause" that always pulls at me: freedom. What you do with your freedom, well, that's up to you. Of course, there is even a debate into what freedom entails. But the one thing you can't debate, (though, given this freedom, I guess you could), is the freedom to question, and to communicate this questioning. That is the start of many things, (including logic). We take it for granted in America, though, there are places around the world where that freedom is a dream. And there are those in this very country that are chipping away at this right, each and everyday, right before your eyes...

Okay, maybe I'll talk about politics a little.

Oval Office Hunting

What do Bill Clinton and Dick Cheney have in common?

They've both shot someone in the face.


I (unfortunately) thought that one all up by myself. Later, I will finally tell the lost tell of my unemployment, and re-employment. Until then, imagine Dick hunting with Monica, and imagine a better world. Sleep well, you'll need your rest.

In The End

I've been out of the whole blogging thing for a while. A lot of shit went down, but in the end, it all worked out. I have a new (and better) job, and life is going good. The year 2005 sucked, but it looks like 2006 is going to be much better, (knock on wood).

Not sure what is next for this blog. Not sure who is still out there reading, or what I have to say. We'll see.

The End

Well, I'm officially fired. And on this same day, I blow a promising interview by missing my airplane by a couple of minutes. I'm a fuck up.

I can't talk much about all that has happened in the past couple of months. There's a lot of pain, and a lot of territory to cover. I'll have a lot of "free time" now, (besides job hunting, my "side business", and cleaning and cooking), to devote to writing. Maybe it will be this blog. Maybe it will be a new beginning for this blog, maybe it will die.

But I won't die, I'm still Alive, yea, ye, yea, ye, yea...

Oh, and I had a German beer so thick and potent, you have to fucking chew it, so I'm a little drunk. And I'm cleaning.

Stay busy, best way to avoid hating yourself.

The Shit Hits the Fan

No, this isn't a "Stall Wars" post, (though, it might make a decent title). The shit really has hit the fan. That's why I haven't posted in a while, and why I won't be posting for a little while longer. Work is bad, and I have to work my ass off. If I am not careful, I could very well lose my job.

Through it all, something in me has changed. It took something very painful, and someone very essential to me, to wake me up to reality. While my complacency might be shattered now, it might be a little too late.

The self-reflection can come later. Right now, I have to be disciplined and uncompromising with certain aspects in my life. I hope I have the strength and determination to make up for my flaws and previous mistakes. But no matter what happens, this can't be a phase, it has to be a change in my life, (and it is only the beginning).

I will write about it all in the end, I just hope I have a happy ending to write.

Spam Spam Spam

I don't like spam. Then again, who does?

I finally turned the word verification on the comments on. Not sure why I delayed it, maybe I thought I would get less comments if I did, I don't know. But the comment spammers finally got to me, having to delete a couple every few days.

They are a bunch of brainless, greedy whores. I wish there was a better word than "whore," because I believe it does a disservice to even the lowliest crack whore. There is no excuse or point to their existence. They fuck things up for other people on a large scale in hopes that a very, very small percentage will respond in some way. Prostitutes don't screw up things for other people, they just screw people (in a good way), and that makes them much better than your average spammer. Just something to think about...


Anyway, I haven't posted in a while, but I'm writing more tonight (and the next day). I'll probably keep things shorter, (but definitely not sweeter), from now on. I'm busy trying to keep my job, find a new one, grow my side business, take care of my wife/family/house, and keep my sanity in the process. All of which is cutting into my video game time, (joke)*.


* I've learned to put "joke" by potentially offensive sarcastic remarks. Based on negative responses from similar remarks on my friend Chris' blog, I've learned there are a lot of people with really bad reading comprehension and sarcasm/joke detectors. As far as other potentially offensive remarks, I make no apologies.. so you can go ahead and fuck yourself.